I almost went away this morning.

It's true, I almost went away this morning.  By that I mean I have been doing some serious thinking as to why I have a blog...it's really just a diary that reminds others, and me about just how insignificant my life is.  And I hate the pressure of feeling compelled to put something on here every blue moon or so.  See the truth is I believe that the internet is such a driving force in antisocial behaviour that I don't want to contribute to the decline of civilization that has taken millions of years to construct.  The tool..if it is such, has simply made it easier for others to pressure us into joining this group or that group that means more time exposing ones self to advertising and info that we really don't need.  A wise older dude informed me a few years back that we can't mourn the world, and if we allow ourselves to open up and be bombarded with unnecessary grief we open ourselves up to even more damage, or really, perceived damage.  And, it is at it's very heart just another way to sell to those that probably don't need or would never purchase what you are pushing except we have been part of a societal construct that feels it must spend.  Many therapist now recommend that depressed people go on a shopping spree to make themselves feel better.  Given this, does it mean that those that don't spend are in a healthier state of mind to begin with?  It is also believed that internet use and depression are linked with both rising sharply along parallel paths.  The question then becomes which is the symptom and which is the cause?  If you shut yourself in and assume antisocial behaviour by joining groups and following "friends" on the internet is it a sign of depression or will it cause depression?  I don't know the answer to this but if it is true I don't want to contribute to others feeling that way, or inadvertantly assist them in pushing their credit cards to the max.

This blog is not something I take pride in and it's such a small thing with few readers, but I refuse to campaign others to join because if I don't feel comfortable doing it why would I invite others to put up with it during their daily routines when there are numerous more interesting and important things to do?  But, apparently I am in the minority among my friends and family.  Just recently I was informed of my sister's engagement by someone that had read about it on Facebook.  Really?  You couldn't pick up the phone and call before making that post?  In chosing this option it implied that those excluded from that particular site were outside the realm and either felt pressure to join or were in effect left to their own devices in finding out...in this case from a relative stranger at the grocery store.  I guess I could take some comfort in the fact that all of the other "friends" knew in a timely fashion...and they got their daily dose of commercial bombardment with the news.  The real question is if it left them conflicted because they were not so depressed for a short time with the arrival of joyous news and the scrolling ad to the right for whatever you didn't really need was a waste of some commercial enterprises not-so-hard-earned-money?